Wow, me.... get over yourself, grow up, and fight forward.
Okay, now that we got THAT established.
So What's left to prove?
We have made it through.
If I'm having a day that I'm not necessarily "fired up" about Jesus or doubting beliefs, etc, I wonder why. I struggle with the concepts of "what if" and "why." Why do I believe what I believe? What proof have I discovered for myself that solidifies Christianity? There is a part of me that's like, "God, why couldn't I have just lived back in your day on earth. If I had seen you in person, everything would be so much easier to believe." Right before God ascended back into Heaven at the end of his time on earth, he gave the great commission. If I had been there, you better believe I'd want to go tell people about it and not be afraid or confused. I would've just seen a friggin "human" float up into the sky! Uhhh... hello!?
But now it's been 2,000 years. Two thousand years later, and yes, we have the Bible, but in a sense, what we've been given is "word of mouth." The problem is that I feel like the Bible just leads to cyclic thinking.
"Why is the Bible true?"
"Because God says it is."
"Oh, oh... cool. How do you know God said that?"
"Because it's in the Bible."
Two thousand years. The proof. Wouldn't it just be so much easier if Christianity was just a fact. You could still choose whether or not you'd want to follow it, but at least it would be a fact. Now, if some people are reading this and getting all freaked out wondering if I'm questioning my faith and going off the deep end, rest assured... I'm okay. I'm just simply stating my thoughts on how I struggle with the faith aspect of Christianity. I'm okay with "believing" off of word of mouth/literature. We do that all the time. I just struggle with knowing that the evidence I wish existed... doesn't.
And I know people say, "well there IS evidence." I know, I know. I know there's "supporting proof" for certain aspects of the Bible. Sweet. But there obviously isn't the proof that I'm talking about, because if there was proof for everything in the Bible.... actual FACTUAL TRUTH, then a whole lot more people would believe.
Well, I just realized that it's been a month since I updated. It's not that I haven't wanted to. It's that I have literally been so incredibly busy that I haven't been able. The last month has been incredible. Within the small course of 30 days, I have...
Had an incredible week with the WHOLE family over the July 4th week.
Gone to probably 6 or 7 grad parties.
Finished the Konnected recordings/been on the radio premiering the songs.
Gone to see Wicked with amaaaazing people.
Done some recording of my own with Evan.
Had lots of fun times with Rachelle that one week she was home.
Gotten to see Sabrina play some music.
Gotten to help lead music at my church's VBS.
Spent 4 days with some of my best friends in Maine, which was indescribable.
Played my last Konnected concerts.
Had 3 days of amazing fun at the Spiedie Fest
(not only performing but listening to a ton of other concerts as well.)
And that really is the tip of the iceburg. It's been such an incredible way to spend my "real last summer." I wouldn't change anything about it. It's hard to believe I'm leaving in like 7 days. I know it's just going to fly by, since I have SOOO much stuff left to do. I hope I can squeeze everything in. The last week is already going to start out amazing. At noon today, I'm going with Evan, Josh, Jordan, and Nate to a camp in Pike, NY where we will be performing the worship and a concert set tonight. Tomorrow is one of my last days at work, and on Wednesday, Dave, Ryan, Justine, Ben, Greg, and I are going to be at Kingdom Bound all day. Thursday will officially be my last day of work, then I will spend my last few days truly packing up everything, finishing shopping, and saying goodbye to people. I leave for college on next Tuesday. Crazy.
Honestly, though, I'm excited. I have had the greatest team of people mentoring me and being part of my life along the way, and as much as I'm lost as to where I'll end up in the future, there are also some absolutely incredible possibilities that have already arisen, so it's great to know I have such an incredible team of people that believe in me and are willing to help me along the way. God has been incredible to me, and I am so blessed.
So here we go, college. haha... so stoked.